This past year, I reached the 70-year mark, my very own “threescore and ten” (see Psalm 90:10) – an age I used to think was pretty old, sort of “the end of useful living.” I don’t think I ever said that or even thought it in any clearly thought-out sort of way, but nevertheless, that was my perspective. (Sorry.) So, the question is, “What now?”
When I was younger, life sort of ran itself, I had to complete whatever course of action I was on. High-school had courses to be passed and a diploma to be earned, an end to be reached. My Navy time had many requirements; I couldn’t just quit. (Well, without facing severe consequences.) So, I just continued on, doing what was required, not really being in control of anything. As an adult I had to have a job so I could have money to pay the rent, buy the groceries, supply clothing for my kids, provide for my family – you know what I mean. On and on. (I know; I’m sounding pretty pessimistic.)
Of course, along the way, there were some major highlights! Like, learning to read. Wow! That one ability opened up a lot of worlds before me! And since I learned to enjoy science fiction at a pretty young age, I really do mean a lot of “worlds”! I travelled a lot of places and saw a lot of things and enjoyed many adventures in that universe of reading! One of the greatest things that ever happened to me!
And another thing, I’ve often said that I “grew up in church” – meaning that from my earliest memories, church was a large and important part of my life. Still is! And I’m glad of that.
But skipping over a lot of important stuff, let’s get back to my point; I’ve hit the “retirement” portion of my life. I don’t have to set the alarm or punch a timeclock! (Do people still use that term?) And, in so many ways, I am glad of that. Certain responsibilities are no longer on me. My time of simply reacting to the requirements of life, at least in major ways, is over.
One area of my life, however, is far better: my marriage! I get to spend far more time with Sharon than ever before! And, I’ve realized what a poor husband I have been and now I have time to do better, to pay better attention, to listen better. Umm … well, maybe I’m still not doing so well. You’ll have to ask her.
So, I guess my question is, as I amble along the way I’m on, … what now?
I think I found my prayer in Psalm 71, could be entitled as “Prayer of an Old Man.” Notice two verses (but look it up and read it all).
“O God, You have taught me from my youth, And I still declare Your wondrous deeds. And even when I am old and gray, O God, do not forsake me, Until I declare Your strength to this generation, Your power to all who are to come.” (Psalm 71:17-18)
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